Well been waiting all day for my blog domain to show up and kept getting error messages and this morning I find out I typed something in and had left an s off and so nothing was connecting. Got it fixed and will be remodeling my new WordPress soon maybe today if the gaming group doesn’t meet today.
Well as soon as it gets installed my blog will be moving from here to Sevendarks.com
Trash is taken out and have started the laundry. I never remember my parent telling me how much laundry even older kids produce, I knew toddlers used a ton of clothes but my girls still produce a ton of laundry LOL .
Let us hope I am climbing out of the pit again had a couple of productive weeks late last month, would like to duplicate that again this month.
On the bright side, I have started getting treatment for my diabetes and am going to see a specialist about possible ADHD or depression issue I suffer from. I also started a Gofundme to help pay my massive deductible and actually got a few donations, thanks to all my friends
I have finally started doing some rearranging in the dining room I have been planning for the last 6 months. I am hoping to get eh computer desk put together Saturday or Sunday and actually put at least one of the desktops online. I am surprised how well I have gone with just this laptop over the last year
I repel what I love.
I lose what I love
The tighter I try to hold on the father I push my desire away.
All my life I live for tomorrow.
That there will always be a chance to say I’m sorry.
If I close myself I turn cold and hard.
I open myself up and my insanity floods my mouth.
Cling to tight and crush the jewel.
Hold too loose and it falls between my fingers.
Attach to quickly, and set myself up for pain.
Shield my heart and never feel another’s heart.
Delusions of reality is where I live.
My fantasy world, where I think I love and am loved.
In reality, I may be loved but I fail to love.
Insincerity if my creed.
Lack of emotional connection is my skill.
I am a psychic vampire.
I drain the lives of those around me
Till finally as a husk they see the truth.
In my cave, I sit alone
I dream a dream the lie I live
I am unable to love another human being.
I am an ostrich with my head in the sand.
I am living in my head no grasp on reality.
Oh, the sunlight of truth is hard on my eyes
Showing just how empty my heart is.
Do not chase peace
You can never catch it
Be still, calm, and wait
Peace will come to you
forgotten how fun
talking with a kindred spirit
satisfies the soul
I am who I am.
I am complex.
I am irrational.
I am logical.
I am a dichotomy of many things.
Love me, hate me, ignore me.
I am me.