Hello darkness my old friend……

Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

Yes it seem that the joy of the rush is over and now the darkness of the crash approaches. Being basically Bi polar can suck at times. You start a lot of wonderful project when you are full of energy and creative, you just have to hope you complete them before the dark walls of depression seal you off from the desire to do anything.

Mine i a learn behavior, learned form growing up in a household where I am quite sure my mother suffered from it. While it has been inconvenient in my life seldom, thankfully, has it had a major impact in my life. Sadly though the times when it has have been totally devastating. Fortunately as they say in Monty Pythons Quest for the holy grail; ” I got better”. I suffer from it less now then I did and have more more control over the highs and lows. There are still times though when it takes all I can do to keep from falling in the dark pit of depression and just staying there.The lord , my wonderful wife and good friends have been a great bulwark again the darkness and also a huge strength to me in dealing with it and I thanks them all.

I just hope the article I read about having a depressed parent will make my kids messed up is wrong and we can end the family cycle with me.

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2 Responses to “Hello darkness my old friend……”

  1. atroll Says:

    Hang in there! I know what it is like to be depressed, but if you simply endure long enough with hope things will get better. Good times never last, but neither do bad times. Good times come again, and they are worth having, so hang in, my friend
    !

  2. sevendarks Says:

    Thank for the encouragement Intellectually I know the truth but some times I just don’t feel it 🙂

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